Words

I've been asked to put words to the webpage, words I'm not sure I have.  So this may be a hodge podge sort of blog, but here goes:

1.  Things I'm grateful for:

1. lower gas prices
2. good conversations about prayer
3. dreams of God being shared with me
4. my comprehension that it's primarily His work and my partnership instead of vice versa
5. friends who stick by me
6. the healing of my life that cancer brought
7. time with a precious newborn named Autumn, that is much easier than i anticipated
8. grace to choose a raw foods diet for almost a week
9. my brother passing all his tests to become a fireman
10. tentatively more hours that I'll be scheduled to work=more $

Post Cancer Update:  I should be going to the dr sometime soon to for my first 3 month check up.  I don't want to go.  I dread it.  i don't know why.  I don't know if it's cuz I'm afraid that it'll be bad news or just the normal dread a woman has about "girlie exams".  I am taking a hormone patch and a pill.  It's a lot of estrogen, and I would like for my body to not need so much.  We've found out that my thyroid was running extremely low, so I've started taking a new thyroid med as well.  This has changed things quite dramatically.  For those that have known me for a long time, I used to get so cold that I would have to take a bath to warm up.  Now I'm sweating like a hooker in Sunday school.  These pills along with my new diet will hopefully begin to help slough off the extra weight I'm carrying and help me feel better.  I quit my surgeon after several frustrating events and will be working with the Southwest Cancer Center again.  Hopefully they will be nice to me. I still struggle emotionally and probably need to talk to a counselor.  I find that I'm in a season of self pruning.  It's time to cut off a lot of dead weight, or cut out the cancers of my life.  God's promises at the beginning have remained true in my life:  He is jealous for me and Health is on the other side of this mountain. How very little I know about both of those issues.  I've been thinking a lot about the work/worship connection in the Hebrew language.  It's more than a connection, there the same thing.  I find that in my need for more hours both because of the finances it provides but also for the sanity it provides, I understand a side of worship that I never saw before.  Worship brings sanity.  It brings things into a right perspective.  Worship brings order, therefore work brings order in our lives too. 

Things I'm praying for:

1. My credit score to improve and the finances to provide for me to buy my own house so that I might become a foster/adoptive/host parent in this next year.
2. A permanent location for 24-7 prayer amongst university students in Lubbock that is not attached to a denomination in anyway. 
3. God's continued guidance and connections for 247 in Lubbock. 
4. Healing Grace for my body and mind.  I've spent many years exercising my spirit, now it's time to exercise my body & soul so that I can be a unified healthy piece of the body.
5. Jobs for my brothers that they both enjoy and in which they are well paid.  

Things I've learned about prayer recently:

1. It really has less to do with my wish list or agenda, and much more to do with what is God's heart and will for my life, the unification of prayer amongst university students and his will for my brothers.  Lord, not my will but your will be done.