Madame Blueberry

I think Madame Blueberry is the Veggie-tale that has impacted my life the most. I am constantly reminded of how horribly ungrateful I am. Over these last few months I have been drowning in the heaviness of life. It seemed as though crappy circumstances were on every corner. I tried to count it all as joy. (Freudian slip...I typed in "count it as job"...as in the guy who suffered)

Now that there is less "suffering" in my life I see myself watching the lives of others who are suffering much more than I.

My brother Cole buried a friend from high school yesterday, who was murdered two days ago in the "Road-Rage" Murder in Lubbock of Daniel Green. It was extremely hard on Cole to bury our grandfather 4 months ago, and now to have to bury a friend. One he worked with, drank with, laughed with. It's so sad. Cole and his friends are only 24.

My friend Kyle is 26 and had open heart surgery one week ago.

My uncle who has MS, fell and broke his hip. He had to have surgery yesterday. They cannot treat his pain because of the MS. This is just after his mother had been in the hospital because her stomach was bleeding. And less than a month after his father was in the hospital with open heart surgery. Gramps will have to go back in to have another surgery in a few weeks.

So I guess all I'm saying is that I know there are people who have much worse circumstances.

I try to be grateful, but it doesn't come out like I hoped.

Holly and I went to see "The Secret life of Bees" on Friday. There was a sister May who carried the weight of the world on her. I have felt like that. I don't want to feel like that anymore. It's not my burden to carry.

Lord help me. Be with Cole, Claude, Kyle and Daniel's family.