forgiveness

Was taught a new meaning of forgiveness today. So imagine someone does something that hurts you. They owe you a debt. Unforgiveness is wanting them to repay a debt they can never repay. Forgiveness is realizing that Jesus paid all of our debts. So you take the debt that someone owes you and give it to him to repay. Someone stole your peace/joy/innocence/trust, let Jesus repay you with a double portion.

This new revelation came in very handy.  I seem to be faced daily with a choice to forgive.  So if you'll bare with me, I think this blog is really going to be a letter to Jesus asking him to repay me for somethings that have been stolen.

Jesus, I bring to you today these debts that are owed to me and I ask that you repay me what was stolen.  Many years ago, my innocence was stolen, Jesus will you give me a double portion of innocence back.  Throughout the years people in various shapes and sizes have rejected me for various reasons.  This was them stealing my sense of belonging, my ability to trust, my sense of connectedness.  Jesus will you restore what was stolen from me.  Jesus, my sense of self worth was stolen from me many years ago.  Will you restore to me my sense of self worth.  Will you forgive me for the times that I tried to create a worth in my own right, outside of you?  Jesus, many years ago I trusted you fully and completely.  Different times of pain in my life have stolen the trust that I once gave to you.  Will you restore my ability to trust you completely.  Jesus, I have had relationships stolen from me that were very dear to me.  Will you restore these relationships to me?  Jesus, will you restore my faith that was stolen from me.  Jesus, I've carried around shame for years like a parting gift.  Will you take it from me and replace it with a sense of honor that only you can give?  Jesus, my reputation has been stolen from me.  Will you restore it, so that I can rightfully give it back to you? Jesus, as of late several people have hurt me deeply by not choosing to value me like you do.  In a way, they are stealing my value.  Will you restore my value to my friends.  I admittedly don't know if I'm doing this right.  All I know to do is to come to you with my hurt and ask you to fix it.  I don't even know at this moment what has been fully stolen as of late.  I know my ability to trust people at face value is gone.   Each time crisis happens, I feel as though my peace, joy and security are stolen.  Will you restore my ability to trust, be at peace, be joyful and feel secure.

Jesus, I release all the people who have stolen from me over the years from their false responsibility to repay me.

Jesus, more than ever in my life, I want you to be my all in all.  Help me let go of the lies and the false security systems and trust you more and more completely.