the cave

I've gone into my cave it appears. All weekend long I didn't want to leave my house. I finally did leave yesterday for class and will leave again shortly to go to work, but I think my heart is still in the cave.

I'm guessing it's my coping mechanisms at work. I just finished reading "Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers. AMAZING! But also gut wrenching. My poor friend Erick had to listen to me one to many times blubbering on like an idiot. It's times like that, that I hate being a woman. Prick my heart and out comes a rushing river. Oh, sanity, you are beyond my reach.

My apartment, is naturally dark, so even at mid-day, if I don't have the lights on, it seems like it's late in the day. Which is nice and a tad unhealthy. On the other hand, my complex has lights outside that stay on all night. So at night I don't get to sleep in darkness. This has completely messed up my sleep schedule with Day Lights Savings too. Because now, the light comes peeking in really early (7:30) when I used to avoid it till much later.

I hate feeling like I don't have the skills to cope emotionally to reading a book. It addressed so many things that my heart couldn't take it all.

Jesus I need help!!!!

Ok...I could dilly dally here all day. I must face the world.